Reflections, Gratitude and Vision

What a year! I sort of feel like the last two years have just been one really long year, but in more good ways than not. I honestly have so much to be grateful for even in the midst of some pretty big heartaches that I experienced. It was full of huge personal developments, emotional healing, lifestyle changes and pursuing passions.

I invested in my health journey, going mostly vegan in April after watching a number of documentaries (Seaspiracy and Kiss the Ground) and following a number of vegan creators. I lost another 15lbs reaching my two year goal weight I established in March 2020. Let me say that I did no extreme exercising nor did I change anything about my diet other than removing meat and dairy. I owe the majority of my weight loss to changing my mindset around food and how I felt about my life.

Moving outside of the physical appearance, changing my mindset was the biggest impact to my year. I dug into my spirituality, astrology, human design, started meditating and implemented daily writing. I really put thought into what I wanted out of my life, how I was going to achieve the happiness I so desperately always craved. I did some serious looking within and discovered what has ultimately lead me here - starting this blog.

I have made so many friendships in the online space, that stepped up in a way that I could have never imagined. I am so grateful to each and every one of these amazing ladies because they taught me unconditional love. Women, who were once strangers, now women I could never imagine not having in my life. Thinking we shouldn't talk to strangers is sort of limiting us to feeling the most powerful of emotions because all of our friends, were once strangers.

I decided April, that it was time to go back to school. I came across the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and knew this is what I needed to do. It was everything that I wished my college degree provided. The program looks at the whole life of an individual. What is going on in their life, not just the problem. That is how we make breakthroughs; by looking at the whole picture. That is true healing. I am so grateful that I committed to this because it is has changed my entire life. it gave me purpose, drive and reignited the whole reason I went into Psychology. To help people.

Making these decisions skyrocketed so many things in my life that I honestly don't have words to describe the amount of transformation that endured. I became so much more committed to the direction of my life. Not to mention the coaches I've worked with that helped provide me tools to put thoughts to action and feeling into reality.

I have so much to be grateful for in all areas of my life truly. Though, I have experienced some major losses. A long time friend and I decided to part ways for the time being. While that was a hard lesson to learn, I have deep appreciation for the amount of time she was in my life and the experiences we shared. I am hopeful to reconnect when we are ready, but release all expectations as what will be, will simply be. I have so much love for her and that will never change. We are simply walking along two different paths.

The second wake up call and actual ignition to my developing process to heal with art lies with a dear friend of mine that ultimately lost her life in a tragic accident. She was only 23 and in the moment that I found out about her accident, I went straight to my paint brushes and paint. I took every emotion that I couldn't put to words and placed them on that canvas. I entered this meditative state and once I came out of it I simply knew that I needed to share this process with others. Art is incredibly therapeutic because it conveys an emotion, a process even. It's something I think is incredibly beneficial to soul. To create something from nothing with love and intention. it is truly magical.

My vision for 2022 is to share the process of healing through art with you. I'm actually writing this on the New Moon; the Eve of this blog launch with such absolute certainty that this is going to be another life changing year for all of us. I'm looking forward to many more breakthroughs, many more friendships, partnerships, knowledge learned and so much more. My hope is that you will stick around for the whole journey because I can't wait to see what we all can do together. All my love.